emo........

I guess....for certain things we can't say "wait till you are older..." What if we don't get to grow old? I mean...what if something happened and just happen to leave the world early? I just think that when opportunities come, one should grab the chance...

I've always been told that I can go overseas with friends when I'm 21 years old. I don't get the reason though. I'm not saying we can go at an age as young as 15, 16...it's reasonable to restrict back then...but i guess 18 is old enough to be independent? I've never been able to learn to be independent because of restrictions...Ever since sec 4, marilyn had been asking me to go overseas with her...taiwan...hongkong...and i can't. I wasn't allowed....now...Mar left sg...and i wun get a chance to go overseas with her until lyk 5 yrs later..

I've always wanted to go out and explore with my friends, have fun with them. There are some things that feels different when you are with friends...and the experience is different with friends. For example, the feeling of going to disneyland with friends will definitely be diff from goin with parents...cos...it's juz a ...kids thing...a gurls thing probably. I dun get to go amusement parks very often and even if i go...i can't take most of the rides cause there was no one to accompany me. It is no fun to play alone.

Sometimes i just feel so caged. Yes i'm told that once i'm 21, i can do or go whereever i want to...and i;ve been waiting for this day. That wld be my biggest wish and present to go overseas with friends...but in the end? all my friends carn make it. Come to think of it...why make me wait? I mean...what if i dun live to see this day, am i supposed to die with regrets? And you see...when i had the chance to go overseas with friends...i carn go...now i can go..........my friends carn make it. This is to show tt...once u have chance, u shd juz grab the chance ...and not say wait wait.. it doesn;t mean that at 18...u will meet danger while at 21 , u wun meet danger...or at 18 u will be worried...while at 21 ...u will not be worried. Then why dun juz.....loosen up abit.... I really feel very.......frustrated sometimes...everytime i see how my hopes are dashed...how my wish carn be fufilled...i feel so.......disappointed....I guess i need to live long enough so that i wun die without regrets