finally

hahah my blog has been soooooo dead for soooooo long. Was really busy with all the stupid midterms...and is still busy with lab report and project work. LSM2241 is giving me such a big headache...so taxing..with mini project and presentation around the same time. Rather stressed lately...i wished i could as 看得开 as some people. >.< I'm demanding alot from myself...i want myself to finish everything in time...i want myself to do well for tests, i want myself to have fun with friends. I don't know...these expectations are kinda stressing me out...but who to blame? Me...

I've been reflecting a lot lately. I've been thinking alot. On my school work...am i coping well? why am i lagging behind? thinking about friends...have i hurt anyone lately? have i neglected my friends? on my life...what's wrong with me? Lately i've been wondering if i have bipolar disorder. It's very likely since i have these major mood swings which could last one period of time. When my mood is bad...everything would seem to dark to me....life seem so bleak...when my mood is good...i just go super high...I dunno...probably i'm sick.

Yesterdae had a great time with alvin, jasmine and jinghan. I think one great blessing in my life was to know them. It's really fate when it comes to meeting friends. We met in the lab...Everyone else...didn't really make such close friends in lab. People were wondering how on earth we can get so close by knowing each other in the science lab. I don't know...it just happened...it seems like fate that we would be friends. Alvin was my lab partner. Fate arranged him to be my lab partner i guess. Intellectual and a great thinker he is...though sometimes he will drive you crazy with his theories and those confusion he caused in you before exam. But he is indeed a great friend. Jasmine. Sweet and caring she is. We share some common interest like cooking (though she can cook much much better than me). I admire her for her talents...in arts and crafts...cooking ....and more. I envy her for her great 桃花运, though she says they were 烂桃花. She's a very thoughtful friend whom you can confide in and she is someone i would want to stay in touch with even 20, 30 , 40 years later. Jing. Her bubbly character never fails to brighten my day. She showers us with love generously...and you can be sure she'll never do anything to hurt you. She would always be my friend...and i'm sure of it. There is nothing about her that i can complain about. I love all of them for who they are...and i love whoever and whatever who arranged our meeting. Thanks for that.

Back to the birthday celebration yesterday. Jas and I went breadtalk to get jing a cake for her birthday. Jas paid for it since she hadn't got any present for Jing. We met Jing...and Jing was made to decide the venue for dinner. hahah she had a hard time certainly. First she stopped at Secret Recipe...staring at the cakes...me and jas objected...giving lame reasons...but our main reason was that...we had a cake for her! then she wanted fish and co...NO!!!!!!!! cause Fish and Co has free cake for birthday girl. Finally we settled with NY NY. Yet again...we had heart attack again when she started choosing her dessert (cake). "eh..jing...don't choose cake la...later ask alvin treat yoghurt" =) We waited..."ok lor..." Phew...then we started camwhoring while waiting for Alvin. Jing was really happy to see my presents for her =) this makes me really glad. She's a very appreciative girl...she cares about the thought more than the actual value of the object. Alvin finally arrived...as usual ...he stared at the menu..and started calculating the calories of the food. haha...in the end...he chose fish and chips. Haha dunno why he waste time calculating the cal since he's goin to settle for such an unhealthy choice. I chose baked dory fillet =) I'm in love with grilled fish now..i wonder why. It was always fun eating with them...cause we would always talk nonsense...Alvin started crapping about his "theory of sogginess" which was kinda gross seriously. How he dip his biscuit into milk for 30s...or eat cereal that was completely soaked in the milk. Oh not forgetting fries with water...hahah and the auntie who added his sunny egg to his fish soup..hahah Then he started to say how stupid he feels in front of his friend because his friend is very knowledgeable and he doesn't feel the same when he's with us. He just means we are stupid...when i said that...he agreed...he nodded his head... Then after all the crap, Jas presented the cake and Jing was sooooooooooooooooooooo happy. her eyes totally lit up! We lighted the candle...and whispered the birthday song...since she dun want it to be so obvious. She made a few wishes..She shared her cake with us...Alvin and I refused to it...Alvin cared about the calories while i was too full. Then Alvin decided to betray me and he took a huge bite. My turn....Jing fed me...hahah i nibbled. (it's the thought that counts isn't it) When asked about the wish...she said...her 5th wish was for alvin to treat us to a movie...her 3rd wish was for alvin to treat us to yoghurt and her greatest wish for us to be friends forever. I like her wish and i sure hope it would come true. I would make it come true.

Then we walked to Marina Square to check out the movies available. There wasn't any movies that we were interested in so we decided to play arcade. We started with Bishi Bashi. My reaction is really slow....The game confirmed that fact for me. Luckily there was Jasmine to help me. Jing wasssssss so zhai in Bishi Bashi la. Then we moved on to car racing...my stupid car did not move...so I lost. haha stupid car. But even if it did move...I wouldn't win. Then Jing and Alvin went toilet...and I moved on to the stupidest game ever. Puzzle Bobble...but i have to say i do enjoy the game. =P Then me and Jas tried out House of Dead 4. I've always watched my brother play but was too horrified with the graphics..and i dun see how fun it was. But now i knoe...it can get really additive...if it hadn't been so tiring. Me and Jas just kept screaming...we were so excited when the zombies approached. The first time we played...we wasn't too familiar with it so we took a long time to realise we had to reload. The second time we got proer and managed to move on to stage 2. After HOD, the 4 of us went to squeeze in that small little "jeep" to play Jurassic park. Only 2 guns were available so we took turns. While me and Jing were shooting, Alvin was screaming....SHOOOOOOOOT SHOOOOOOOOT SHOOOOOOOOOOOOT SHOOOOOOOOOOT...and the reason why he was screaming was because we kept shooting the animals at the back of the screen...and neglected those that were CLOSE to our screen. so after he shout SHHHHHHHHHHHOOOOOOOOOOOOT we would get knocked by the creatures...and Jing would SCREAM...we were really noisy...with this routine....

Alvin: SHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT
Jing: AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Jas: *laughs*
Me: AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! HAHHAHHAHAHAH

this just went on...Jing got extremely excited and I'm glad she had fun. Afterall it's her bday celebration =) The game had those compatibility points based on how well we worked together in the shooting...Our compatibility scores with one another was quite good. hahah Guess it's fate we are friends =)

Then we made alvin dance para para...we weren't prepared for his cool moves at all...He was still asking us not to film him...so i thought...maybe he just can score...but not really DANCE...When the music started....He posed...He moved...HE DANCED! This moment...he looked damn shuai...Sorry alvin..i dun mean you dun look shuai normally...but in fact you really dun look that shuai =P But he was really dammmmmmmmmn cool and shuai when he dance...all the poses and dance moves...he created them and we seriously think he had some dance talents. Next we made Jing dance...since she's the bday girl. Stupid alvin chose MICKEY MOUSE MARCH for her....a song he tinks was stupid to dance with. She din create moves but i tink she still did it well =) Then they decided to make me dance...I escaped once to make phone call....and had to go home soon...so we all made our way to the MRT station. It din feel like a bday celebration for Jing. It felt like a celebration for our friendship. A short break for us who were rather stressed lately over tests and projects.

It's Jing's birthday today and i want to wish her happy birthday again! I hope she had a great day and this is indeed a significant day. It's her birth that made it possible for me to have such an awesome friend. =) LOVE YOU GUYS!

And I want to thank Qiao for the postcard she sent from Austria. I finally went to retrieve the postcard from my mailbox today and though i knew she sent me...i still felt really excited to see it. Feel so warm reading the words she wrote. I miss her dearly and i hope she's having fun there. I want to thank these friends who appeared in my life...the life which i had much disappointment with. My family and friends are the only ones who make me value my life...without my friends...i think......my life would be of no value to me at all.