cny

Time passes so quickly...it's going to be February soon...now it's already 3 weeks into the semester...I have a feeling I'm still in holiday mood. It's time i catch up with my work! The modules this sem...i would say the schedule is less packed...but i guess work load is also a lot. Personally i liked drugs and soc best, probably because i like the lecturer =) Seriously it's time for me to settle down and really pay attention during lecture. >.<

CnY is around the corner...I don't know why but i feel so stressed up over CNY. Firstly...i got to drive with my cuzzies and uncles' cars following behind me...cause they dunno the way. And they will be waiting at the carpark to see how i park. It's so stressful esp now...it's 1 yr 2 mths since the time i got license...they would be expecting alot from me. If i feel tired and don't wanna drive...they would be asking me why i dun drive...so stressed...sometimes i juz regret learning to drive. Secondly, i have to face all those annoying questions like "so have you got a bf? haven't ar...why so long haven't find?" blah blah...i know i shdn't put it to heart...but sometimes it's annoying when...i myself is waiting for the person...hoping he exists (getting a bit worried abt my future already) and these people are adding oil to the fire...Can't they juz spare me...for once? My auntie wanted to ask when she was on the phone with my mom...Now i understand how those artistes felt when they were approached by reporters. It can really get rather annoying. My mom's gonna be the spokesperson this time...all i can say is..."the right one haven't appeared...." or probably they juz want to hear "i tink i'm not good enuff for any guys to like me"...probably ba. Sometimes i do ask myself tt question...so I'm not good enuff? which means probably i have to stay single forever? which sounds like a terrible idea to me. Love means alot to me...i'm a weak being i know...i'm not like those super independent gurls who can tell u "i can survive being single". I can't...not that i cannot be financially independent, but it's the emotional side of me that cannot be alone. Lastly, CNY is the time when relatives get to see me...so hopefully there are no more comments like "hey u put on weight ya..." blah blah...annoying really. dun ever add oil to the fire please...

After new year...alot will be happening...and not exactly good things for me. Mar ho will be leaving on 9th feb...AND I HATE THIS DATE. my best friend's gonna leave for australia...and i won't get to see her everyday or twice a week as i do now. >.< I don't like this...who's gonna go jogging with me? who's gonna go shopping with me? who's gonna do crazy things with me? who's gonna meet me at the junction and exchange presents with me? who's gonna eat good food with me? mar ho...i would always treasure the memories we had together. Even though the nxt day i have lecture in the morning...i must send her off. I know i will cry...but i must...see my friend...leave. 9th feb again...my brother is leaving for NS...THAT'S WHY I SAID THE DATE SUCKS! i can't imagine not having my brother at home everyday...i had a terrible time without him when he was away for exchaNGE prog. Now tt i knoe he's not goin to enjoy...but goin to suffer...it feels worse..Everytime i go to the temple, i pray that he can live through the 2 yrs of torture successfully, shun shun li li. I guess i have to get used to the absence of his laughter for at least 2 mths...at least after his basic training, he can come back more often.

So on 9th feb, i'll be sending 2 people off...2 impt people in my life. >.< i hope time crawls now...cos i am so not looking forward to it