21........

Finally...time seriously flies...I'm now 21 years old. If I say I don't feel old, that's a complete lie. I just feel that...i have so many things i haven't done...and now I'm 21 years old. I guess time will just continue to fly....and hopefully soon...I'll find the right guy...get married....live blissfully...and then have kids...of cause...good career as well. I guess as i grow older...the desire to get married just gets stronger...but the fear of not being able to get married also grows.

21 years le...as i look back...there were sad moments but there were also happy moments. In these 20 odd years, i got to know fantastic friends whom i would wanna acknowledge. These friends i've listed are some of the closer friends, or friends whom i have msg for.

Let's follow the timeline...Sec 3 and 4 ...I met Jeslin, MayGin, Claire,Ailin, Doris, Wan Mun, Jia Yin, Chun Ling.... Without them...I probably can't live through Os...Of course there were regrets such as not being able to stay as friends with YR...I always thought she could be my best best best friend ever...we wanted to go bag packing in Egypt and many many places...But who knoes...probably it's fate...I was abandoned in China...and I seriously dun get why...why is she so hostile to me...lyk 360 degrees change...Now i smile to her...say hi to her...she daos...I dunno why i deserve that when i was the victim of the entire incident. Probably it's juz a sign to tell me i could find better friends. Because she abandoned me...i got to know MayGin and she has been my pillar of support in Sec 4...without her...prob...i would still be depressed over the loss of the "friend". MayGin, she's someone you can trust...someone who's always there for me when i needed a friend. Jeslin...always so fun! Being with her...i dunno...i feel so relaxed. Claire...hahaha I used to be damn afraid of her...if claire u are reading this...i got to tell u frankly...i was seriously damn scared of u...such that i always try to siam outings when u are goin...>.< But actually...now gettingto know her better..i realise...SHE'S DAMN FUN! and FUNNY also =) She's a super sweet and sincere friend...i carn believe i totally missed it all when we were in sec sch.

Let's see...JC...the first guy friend i got to know...Shing. First impression of him? "gosh that guy is lyk super enthu...what's wrong with him. Orientation already go be CT rep." hahah yes..that's the first impression. I dunno when did i start to talk to him but it was very significant because after being laughed at in primary 5 and 6..(ridiculed, called names etc) I was really very very afraid of guys. I tot i wld turn les seriously. That's the reason why i wanted a gurls sch. To escape from the evil guys...But after knowing shing, i realise...guys aren't that evil afterall. There are nice ones and i knoe shing would be a great buddy...We did have conflicts..some serious ones such that we nearly fall out. But he stepped out to resolve everything...kept apologising for what he did. I have nuthing to say abt him but he's very sincere when it comes to making friends. He's probably a buddy i wun regret knowing.

Anita, (she has to be said after mentioning shing cause they are one body), I'm glad she's loving my buddy wholeheartedly, making him feel loved all the time, making him happy. Thank you so much for wanting him cause i carn tink of anyone who can stand his prcness =) hahah just joking la...shing is a very good man...just not many people can appreciate. hahaha. Anita's very sweet and very helpful. When you need her, you just tell her and she'll be there for you. Seriously an awesome friend! And i love the way she dances =P

Qiao Han, What can i say about her...she represents the definition of a true friend. haha always giving her sincere opinions, sharing your tears and joy. I haven't found anything bad about her yet and yes...me here will wish she finds her true love one day cause i always believe she deserves someone super duper awesome. Someone who would love her as much as i do...or mayb more! =P Qiao JIA YOU!

Felicia, hahahah first thing first...she's damn good to bully, vent anger at. hahah. poor her la...but she's seriously a v true friend also...i dunno...i dunno if she has temper..or like if she actually realli ok with everything but she always try to fufill what u want...lyk even when she's super tired...she wld still go shop with me...eat with me...i dunno...she's very sweet...and i always feel so bad when i had to make her pei me. thanks fel. really i mean it. Under all those niaoing, i hope you know i love you dearly.

Jac, gosh she's the most ON friend i can find. Seriously...anything also damn ON. If i gonna move hse one day, i sure ask for her help cos she's ddamn ON! hahah no la...i sound so evil..li4 yong4 people. She's someone i got to know even better after a quarrel..it's something tt's etched on my mind cause it's something that i wish was prevented. Thank god, we still stayed as friends after that. If i lost this friend after that fight, i probably deserve to die. Msg to Jac? PLEASE GIVE ME FREE MED TREATMENT NEXT TIME WHEN U BECOME A DOC!!!! =)

Quan, the first vegetarian friend i had. A friend who showed me...that vegetarian food can be super nice too. She's a very understanding and sweet friend whom i would miss very often since she's in glasgow. Yuquan, if u see this, please jia you cos I NID YOUR FREE MED TREATMENT TOO! =)

Nao, my closest friend in JC. Always went crazy over kpop...WE FREAKING DANCED SUPER JUNIOR'S MARRY U IN LAB! RIGHT IN FRONT OF THE CHEM TEACHER AND WEISHI FILMED IT...please please ERASE THAT MEMORY!...07S72 PLEASE ERASE THAT MEMORY! but nonetheless, it was one of the best memories i had with her. I think i missed those days...prob we have grown older...and our interest...kinda differed...i felt lyk there's fewer things i can tok abt ...so i kinda talk to her less nowadays. But nao, if u see this, I still love you..i juz prob need some warming up when it comes to talking. (one of my biggest prob...once i feel distant from u..i tend to talk less...cos i dunno how to communicate)

Yang, i've nvr seen such a sweet gurl. Sweet in the inside and sweet on the outside...gosh. hhahhaha. she's currently sick so yang, MUST GET WELL SOON K!

Weishi, first impression of him was :"WHO THE HELL IS THIS GUAI KIA!" he looked damn guai1 which seriously...now i knoe it's fake. haha but he's very fun la..jus that sometimes i'm too innocent for his jokes so...i tend not to react to them as well as nao. And of cos i'm not as fun. He's very sincere to his friends...people might not see it...but seriously, he tries his best to protect his friends...and that's what i like about him.

Mingte...a super random guy...whom i seriously admire..what do i admire about him? His perseverance to score well (he has been working very hard in UK and Mt, continue to jia you! 07S72 spirit will back you up!). I'm sure you can be a doc one day and of cos if u do..PLEASE GIVE ME FREE MED TREATMENT! Something i regretted that involves him. yes there are. During orientation when we played double wacko...i hai4 him lose and he had to do pole dance..so sorry mt. And also when he reached UK for the first time...(first time he left us), he called me...i forgot what;s the time but it's a SLEEP TIME. so i juz picked up the phone..."hallo...." in the most sian tone ever...and he said something lyk.."hey this is mt, i've reached london le..." and what was my reply..."arh...arh..ok..." and i put down the phone. after i put down the phone...i went SHIT!!!!!!!!!! OMG IT WAS MT!!!!!! SHUCKS! i wanted to call back buti couldn't ...waited online for him everyday to apologise...the day when he left...i cried...another s72ner has left us....>.<

Ok i carn go on listing every single one in cls...my blog post will be super duper long. But for the guys, i tink hongchan and kiang they are oso v funny people (funny....not enthu...but funny...kiang can be real sianed but as he tok...he can make us laugh until stomach pain) i rmb during presentation, halfway, the bell rang and kiang had to pause...as usual he loves hang gestures...so as he paused, he did the "prayer" pose. Damn funny. Jeff...murderer, rapist, terrorist, sicko...on the outside...in the inside, he's actually a nice person and a great cook. YOU SHD HAVE TRIED THE CHIC RICE HE COOKED! OMG...i feel so ashamed of myself. Someone i feel very very very sorry about...i nvr told anyone but i kept it in my heart for super long...and the nicer he treats me ...the worse i felt. Daniel, if you are reading this...i'm sorry for reacting greatly at first when i knew we were goin to be bio partners. i hope it din hurt u deep enuff such tt it's etched on ur mind till now...though it did make me live with regrets till now..and even if u do forgive me...i'll still not forgive myself.

As for gurls, Eve's a great talent, someone i really admire and envy =) good lucks, good fashion sense, good vocals =) Choon, her endless freezing cold jokes..if i tell u i love them...I'M FREAKING LYING! but without her...prob the class wld be so dead...dead as in...non living =.=

Ok...finally uni friends. gosh...when i entered NUS, i tot prob throughout the 4 yrs in NUS, my closer friend wld prob only be fel...But i dunno who's the ONE (the nice almighty one) who arranged to put me in that lab bench with 3 of my best friends in uni...JAS, JING and ALVIN...gosh...i really want to thank that someone who arranged for us to meet. I din tink i could have met best friends, friends i can trust...in uni..seemed totally impossible...I'm not tokin abt friends who have come from the same sch like Peijin, caifang, or friends i knew like claire...Jing, Jas and alvin were friends who started as strangers...and what am i afraid of? I'm afraid of strangers seriously...and i could actually be great friends with the "once strangers" gosh...HOW DID THE SOMEONE KNOW I NID AWESOME PEOPLE IN MY LIFE TO HAVE ARRANGED ME TO MEET THIS BUNCH OF AWESOME UNI FRIENDS --- Jing, Jas, Alvin, Peijin, Caifang, Claire, Fel, Xh, Cheryl, Hongling, Aisyah, Maggie... They made my life in uni so much more enjoyable..without them..i dunno how i'm supposed to live thru the endless exams and lectures. Through these people, i know even more awesome people like pris, eric, jenna etc.

Jasmine, She's v thoughtful. She's in some ways (char) like me. but she's alot more stronger and i always admire her for that. She's a role model to me..someone i wish i could be like. She's v dong3 shi4 and very helpful person. She's emotional like me...but i wld say she's emotionally stronger than me...=) She's been through alot of ups and down and whenever she feels the pain, i feel it too...like a twin. So of cos...for selfish reasons too, i hope she finds happiness real soon cause that's when i wld nvr ever feel her pain =)

Jing, I always say she makes me feel loved...that's not being cliche or...mushy or whatever...but i mean it. Everything she does, makes u feel treasured...makes u feel like..."i exist becos jinghan wants me to". When i feel down, i would tok to jas...because she's my confidante...and i'll tok to jing cos she's the ultimate one who could turn the pain and sadness into joy. I always feel so much better talking to her. She literally brightens up my day. I guess such a pessimistic person like me who once had depression, i need someone like jing to "treat" my illness =) Jing, we still have a long way to go as friends. I hope we remain great friends even until the day we die...(when we are old of cos) we would rmb we once had each other...=)

Alvin, he's prob the most feminine guy i knoe in my life...not physically...HE'S NOT NIANG! PLEASE LET ME EXPLAIN MYSELF. He's juz emotionally feminine, meaning he's actually a v sensitive guy, emotional guy. so he's totally a great guy friend to be with. You feel like...you could tell him almost anything..even when he's a guy. He could give u advice "as a guy as well as a gurl"...gives the most objective views..but 1 thing abt him tt i carn stand and please alvin...listen to this..CAN U STOP COUNTING CALORIES! LET ME ASSURE U U ARE FIT ENUFF SO PLEASE ENJOY FOOD WHEN U ARE WITH US~! or at least dun remind us of the calories in the food we eat.

Peijin, the smartest gurl i have met..special thing abt her is..she's smart and she's hardworking. Most of the time when the person is smart...he or she doesn't work tt hard...but pj totally combined intelligence with hardwork. She's v helpful and seriously...she is. She always make a point to remind to do this and that for lectures etc in case we forget. With her arnd...you can be sure u wun miss out or forget anything impt.

Caifang, eccentric? probably not to that extent la...but i would say she's too fun. TOO FUN!!! she makes me damn high la...she's like my ecstacy...that sounds wrong but seriously she makes me HIGH HIGH! I'M SO HIGH! =)

Cheryl and Hongling, the 2 least active member in gugu club =P but nonetheless, to qualify to be part of GGC, they do have their good points. They are v nice people, and quite fun at times. hahaha and cheryl i hope you feel better after puking and shitting so many times. I WANNA SEE YOU IN SCHOOL TML!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =)

XH, he's a v frank person. He knows what he's not doin well in terms of char wise and he always try to improve himself. i guess that's what matters =)

Ok now talking about my junior, Susan. She's an awesome junior. She respects and appreciate whatever we did. A very cute junior i would say. She always try her best not to say no cause i'm the senior but..hahha she does say no. =) she's a v creative gurl as well =) AND I LOVE MY FAVE JNR!

Lastly, the most impt person in my life...Mar Ho...a friend i have known since P2...till now. Whereever one of us move...the other follows...(unintentionally) i dunno why. probably fate...our parents lived in the same kampong...we lived few blocks away when we were in yishun...then mar ho moved to sembawang...and i followed (without knowing she moved to sembawang) so now again we are juz a few stretches of road away from each other. She's leaving sg soon...and that's the worst thing that would happen to me in 2011. But i wish her all the best...she will get a post on her soon ...before she leaves...so i shall not say so much now =)

okie...i've finished the long long long post...Friends...i hope u see my msg to u and all i've said here are the TRUEST THINGS I HAVE SAID IN MY LIFE...said with all my sincerity. If i have offended u in this post in anyway i hope u wun bear a grudge on me...juz let me knoe..ur views =) I love all of u! Those who are not listed, it juz means we are not tt close...but as long as u knoe me and i knoe u...and u haven't hurt me in any way, we are friends and i wld wish u all the best as well! =) LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!!