it hurts.....

I had the worst nightmare ever...it was worse than the nightmare about Ms Koh. In my dream, he was crying...we had a heart-to-heart talk...he cried....it pains me...he said.."shiyun, i'm sorry to make you worry...i'm really sorry...." and he ran up the stairs...the stairs was no ordinary stairs...i ran after him...i ran up ....but the stairs was never ending...it never ends...i kept running...i shouted his name..i prayed..."please don't leave me my friend" ...in my dream i could feel the anxiety...the pain...it's so real...i cried....scared and hurt....

When i woke up...i had tears in my eyes...it was so real...i wanted to call him. But i would look like an idiot...but i want to know he is ok...
Jia you....i want "the old" you back...come back please...........